It’s been quite some time and my heart still melts when I see a picture of him.

It would be in NYC around september/october when it’s chilly but not freezing. Having dinner in a rooftop terrace and then dancing with him with this song playing on the background and then go for a walk and talk about silly things like animals and chocolate and tv shows and how fabulous Cher is.

siiiiiiiiigh

First a guy wants to meet you and then he disappears.

Then another guy dances with you, rubs his fucking ass against your leg, you give him a lapdance and then later you find out that he has a girlfriend…

It isn’t because I don’t have a boyfriend, well yes and no.

It’s just that I miss that feeling when you like someone and you want that person to notice you and then you fall in love and you can’t stop thinking about that same person and at night you imagine spending you life with him or her.

I want to feel all those things again.

First the fucking video of those fuckers beating an asian guy calling him nigga (he’s fucking asian for christ’s sake)

Then last night that fucking video of the poor kitty getting abused by those motherfuckers who I hope they rot in fucking hell (I still can’t get out of my head the noises of the poor animal)

and fucking NOW:

WHO THE FUUUUUCK IN THEIR RIGHT MIND (HUMANLY POSSIBLE) GIVES A FUUCKING BLOWJOB TO A MOTHERFUCKING FUCKING DOLPHIN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?

WHOOOO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!?!?!?!?!!?

HUMANS ARE FUCKED UP.

I don’t understand why people say Oh it’s just a penis get over it!

NOOO I won’t get over it because he is hot ok??

I mean who doesn’t like a nice penis of a young cute sexy guy??

Please excuse me I’m just a dirty virgin.

But let’s be real, everyone loves them, even lesbians, I know you gurls might not like them but honestly a penis would feel sooooooooo good inside your vajayjay ;)

and straight guys, you can compare your penis and feel good about yourselves because maybe you have a bigger dong that him or feel miserable because yours is smaller.

And straight girls, most of you are just ready to go right at it, just like uh ME.

So let’s celebrate this new leaked nudes, of a guy who we might thought we would never see his dick.

Peace.

I think he was with his boyfriend (who had really nice hair) and then he turned around and looked at me and I looked at him and he kept talking to the other person, but looking at me it was AWESOME. I think it lasted about 5 seconds. It was maaaagicaaaaal*** :D

I need to feel another guy’s lips against mine, I need to feel that thing/spark/whatever you are supposed to feel whenever you kiss someone.

I’ve kissed some girls in the past but I feel like something is missing (well DUH! obviously because I don’t like girls) but ughhh idk I want and need to feel that special thing.

So when I finish highschool I plan to live in London for about 9 months before I start college. I want to go to G-A-Y and experience all that crazy shit. But them I’m going to fall in love with a really cute british guy and we are going to be boyfriends and we are going to be all the time doing cute cheesy stuff, but then tragedy is going to come because I’ll have to go to college (Florida) and then we are going to brake up and we are going to be at the London airport crying and kissing and then we’ll say goodbye…forever :””(

I hope someone reads this because I spent a lot of time writing it -.-

She is very supportive but omg today she asked a lot ugh she was like

Are you confused or are you sure?

How did you discovered that you like boys?

I was like idk how the fuck do you know that you like Antonio Banderas.

Ugh it was sooo awkward because I was thinking ‘I can’t tell her that when I started watching porn I liked more the dicks than the boobs’

She said that she is scared of people hurting me and that she wants to protect me and if I knew what I was going to face. I know all that.

She needs help, she is very confused on all that protecting me thing, but at least she loves me and she isn’t trying to change me :D